They say that Jesus and mental health
Are just for those who can help themselves
But what good is that when you live in hell on earth?
From the very fear that makes you want to die
Is just the same as what keeps you alive
It’s way more trouble than some suicide is worth
No, not contemplating suicide. Just giving a little mental health update. Snaps to whoever identifies the song and band without using google.
So for those keeping score, two weeks ago I was put on a couple of drugs: clonezepam and wellbutrin to help ease my anxiety and to help me focus. Both were teeny tiny doses.
The clonezapam was great…for the first week. Then my anxieties came screaming back. Dammit.
Today I had my two week follow up. Since I seem to be tollerating the wellbutrin, she’s upped me to the normal dose, as we had discussed. And since the teeny tiny dose of the clonezapam seems not to be enough, she’s doubling that, too. To just a tiny dose.
She assures me, however, that it’s still a very very small dose. Half a milligram. Which is nothing. She told me she’s prescribed 2 to 3mgs for people before.
Another followup in a month, unless something goes wrong. And she recommends cognative something or other therapy. Which…even with insurance, I’m not sure I can afford right now.
hooray.
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I sincerely hope for the best for you, ESC, in all of your endeavors. My misgivings be damned, if it helps, good.
I am not about to go all Tom Cruise on you.
Hugs
That is really a teeny tiny dose–when I was on it for anxiety I was on 2 milligrams at one point.
Hugs…drugs are good.
Everyone needs a little help sometimes, and sometimes it’s in different forms.
BTW, don’t know if you looked into this option, but sometimes there is FREE cognitive therapy/counseling via a student counseling center. Milk the student thing, seriously. I get FREE group counseling via Counseling and Counsultation Services.
So the real question is: Do the new dosages make you feel better or is it too soon to tell? Hope your doc gets the dosages right to make you all better.
I just JUST started the new dosage this morning. All I feel is tired.
That’s because you were up all night having wild monkey sex, isn’t it?
Deranged weasel sex, Julie. Get it right.
No, it’s because one of the side effects of the clonezapam is sleepiness.
Though the wild money sex probably didn’t help.
(must do testing to determine which has a higher funny quota: wild monkey vs. deranged weasel. on the one hand, everything is funnier with monkeys. on the other hand, weasel is fun to say. this will take some consideration)
Weasels are mean and they bite in a not-good way.
Just sayin’.
but monkey throw feces.
see my conundrum here?
As Homer Simpson Said: “Weaseling out of things is important to learn. Its what separates us from the animals. . . except the weasels.”
Hope you are doing better with the new dosages. Unfortunately, the only way to determine what dose (and what drug) works for you is through trial and error. As a scientist, you know how long THAT can take.
Good luck
Don’t underestimate the cognitive stuff. It’s learning new ways of thinking. How to talk yourself down. Very helpful.