Monthly Archive for November, 2005

backing off now

OK, I think I scared some people with that last post, because after the initial influx of comments…no one wanted to poke it with a stick.

Point taken.

On to happier topics.

knitting news

I finished my Chullo hat! Um…it’s a little big. With some helpful advice from other knitting bloggers, I attempted to shrink it. which was sort of effective. It’s not as long…but it still slips over my eyes a bit. So when it’s dry I might have to resort to sewing in elastic, which should go SO SMOOTHLY because we all know how easily things go for me the FIRST TIME I TRY THEM. Which is how I ended up with a huge hat IN THE FIRST PLACE.

Pictures up later tonight.

Speaking of yarn, my latest order of yarny goodness arrived in the mail today. Ohhhh…how I love the smell of fresh yarn in the morning. Included is yarn for a hat for Kev. Last year I made him a scarf, and he didnt’ break up with me. I’m hoping that means we’re immune to the “knitting for the boyfriend curse,” but I’m tempting fate again with a hat. It’s neccessary though, because boy does not own a warm hat, and he’ll be in PITTSBURGH for christmas! His kissable shiny head will be cold! I must to action!

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mini rant

If you are waiting at a red light, and you’re maybe the third or forth car back, and the light turns green, and everyone in front of you drives off, and you pull up to the green light, stop, and THEN put on your left turn signal….

you are a complete asshole and I hate you.

that is all.

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writing science sucks

God, it’s like throwing up words no one wants to read, let alone me. I need to get this paper done! Why is it taking me so long??? I SUCK! SUUUUUCK!

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band geek flashbacks

So have I ever mentioned that I was a total band geek? yeah. You’re all shocked, I can tell. I played trombone. Marching, jazz and concert band in high school, and a small concert band in college (where for a year I was the only trombone player). God, that was so much fun. BAND, BABY! And if my friend Jen happens to read this…HEY JEN! OH MY GOD, HOW MUCH FUN DID WE HAVE??? REMEMBER THE DONUT THEORY OF LIFE? AND WHEN THE OLDER GUYS STUCK MAXI PADS ON TOM’S BACK AND LOCKED HIM IN THE GIRLS ROOM? AND FAT ANKLES??? HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAAA! Oh shit…those were great times.

I’ve had one or two opportunities to play since moving to Atlanta. I toyed around the idea of playing for the school’s orchestra, but decided against it because I didn’t think I’d have enough time to make the commitment. But you know….back in the DAY…I was pretty good. *cough*

So last week in choir practice we sang a new song that had some instrument accompanyment written in, including a trombone part. Sometimes our director will hire players, but usually only for our big services of music, where we sing the whole service. So I looked over the part, saw if I could remember the slide positions (most of them, I think), and decided to remind our director of my past life.

He seemed enthused about the idea, and told me to bring my trombone to our next rehearsal. That’s tonight. So last night I decided to get out my trombone, clean it up, make sure everything is well lubed (hehehehe) and then proceeded to annoy my neighbors and freak out Sadie by playing a few notes.

It came back to me…slowly. My chops are SO out of shape. I could remember half of an old fight song, some scales. Remembering how tightly I need to “buzz” my lips for certain notes was difficult.

Kev got a kick out of it. I showed him how to hold it and how to “buzz” to make the sounds. He happily played some loud notes and the fun “WAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH” down the slide sound that everyone who picks up a trombone for the first time does.

Hopefully I won’t embarass myself tonight. If anything, I’ll come home with sexy swollen lips that Kev won’t be able to resist ;)

getting trampled on the middle ground

I am going to attempt to tackle an issue that is a subject of much debate right now. I hate to take on serious themes here – lord knows I’d rather put up pics of cute farm animals, my clean kitchen, or talk about my sex life, but I aim to attempt to represent what seems to be an under-represented group.

Christian Scientists.

No, not the kind that refuses medicine and prays to God to cure their cancer. Those people are nuts.

I’m talking about scientists who are Christian. Who have to resolve in their own minds where science ends and where faith begins. And vise versa. Like me.

I want to talk about intelligent design. Mention it in a crowded room, and it has the same effect as bringing up abortion. What starts out as debate soon ends up in an all out screaming match, with both sides becoming more and more polarized and unwilling to listen.

And that’s where the problem is, in my opinion. You see, the pro-teach-intelligent-design-in-science-class people are EXTREMELY polarized. They are stubborn. They are unwilling to listen. They are members of the “nyah nyah nyah CAN’T HERE YOU CAN’T HERE YOU” debate society. But the problem is not so much with them…it’s that the more any group tries to argue with them, and the more the pro-ID refuse to listen, the more polarized that group becomes. Because that is our natural response. When we fight a brick wall…well, we get just as stubborn as that brick wall. And two brick walls standing in a field get NOTHING done, except block progress twice as effectively.

Dude…how’s THAT for an analogy? *pat on back*

So I think we can agree that the screaming and name calling approach to debate is pointless. “So what is your point, ESC? Where do YOU stand, anyway?”

Ah, well….you might be surprised.

I do not think intelligent design is entirely wrong.

*ducks*

I don’t! I don’t think it’s entirely right, but parts of it I agree with. PLEASE LET ME EXPLAIN BEFORE YOU GET ALL BITCHY WITH ME!

Why? How could I? It all goes back to that reconciling of science and faith. While I have dedicated years to studying the hows of genetics…nothing I have studied in school has answered the whys. And that is good. Science has no right to attempt to answer the whys. Because “why” is an opinion. It is subjective. It is the arena of theologists and philosophers.

So what is my personal belief?

Before I go too much into it, let me just say that my faith is daily struggle for me. It is especially difficult as a scientist. Resolving those two parts of me is not an easy task. But I do it. Faith SHOULD be a struggle. Faith is not easy. No one ever promised it would be easy. Anyone who tells you otherwise is lying.

So what do I believe? What is my resolution? Well, I don’t believe that God is micromanaging evolution, that’s for damn sure. That’s where intelligent design falls apart in my eyes. God is not controlling every mutation, every DNA polymerase mis-read or slip, every chromosomal rearrangement. Thos thing happen by chance, and the organism either thrives or withers for it. I believe that species evolve and develop through natural selection to better adapt to their environments.

But…having said that…I believe that every once in a while, evolution gets a nudge from God. A characteristic that develops that might quickly die out if not for a little support. A slight push. A helping hand. I don’t see God controlling the tiniest details. I see God in the biggest picture. In the Plan. This is what allows me to get up in the morning. I am almost guaranteed to be very wrong in this belief. In fact, I think everyone gets it wrong. The truth is probably so hugely wonderful and terrible at the same time, that our minds would explode were we even given a hint. But as humans, we find a way to get through the day. I have mine.

BUT

I sure as HELL do not want that being taught in science class. And this debate is what REALLY burns me up. My faith…ANYONE’S faith, has NO BUSINESS being taught alongside researched theories. Science class is for SCIENCE. The theory of evolution is the general accepted way species develop on earth. Will it ever become the Law of Evolution? Doubtful. Because we can’t go back in time to see what really happened. The theory is based on the hard evidence that’s been gathered, researched, debated, agreed and disagreed on, and presented for review. That is how the SCIENTIFIC process works. That is NOT how the FAITH process works. And while the two can exist simultaneously in the same person (hello! *waves*), they don’t belong together in the same class at school.

For a nice definition of what constitutes and scientific theory, go here and scroll down to “Portraying Intelligent Design as Science.

Would faith hold up under any of those qualities of scientific theory? NO! Because my faith cannot be held up to scientific principal. It cannot be tested for. It cannot be measured. It cannot be dissected. It cannot be put under a microscope. It is not up for debate or peer review. I would be offended if anyone tried. Faith is personal. It should be shared…but NEVER forced upon (and that is a WHOLE OTHER ISSUE that gets my dander up, by golly).

So while teachers should be able to say “class, this is evolution. Not everyone believes in it, but evolution is the theory that is supported by the vast majority of the scientific community. And as this is science class, that’s what I will be teaching you. If you are interested in learning about the non-scientific explanations, I suggest you go to the library, or ask your parents, or your pastor/priest/rabbi/medicine woman.”

Should ID be taught in school AT ALL? Sure. Not in science class, of course, but I think mentioning it in a world cultures class would be very appropriate. Along with the beliefs of Muslims and Hindus, etc. That would be an acceptable forum for those ideas.

Now everything that I stated above is my personal beliefs. I wrote all that NOT to argue with any of you that disagree, OR to try to convince any you of their validity. I simply wanted to share my viewpoint. What I said earlier, about both sides getting more and more polar…well, that worries me. Because it is getting to the point that the pro-ID side is saying that scientists are anti-god…and the scientists are starting to believe it. (I’m using “scientists” as a more inclusive term here, those that anti-ID in schools). Science is NOT anti-God or anti-religion. It is not science’s job to prove OR disprove God.

Now I *heart* FSM as much as anyone else, Flying Spaghetti Monster is a symbol of the ridiculous off putting ID or any other faith based or “why” –based theory on the same level as a real scientific theory. It should NOT be used to ridicule anyone actually HAVING a faith based theory.

Doing so only polarizes us further.

I hope I’ve made some sense here. And I hope I haven’t pissed anyone off TOO badly. While the zealous extremists are already undoubtedly beyond help, my hope is that I’ve managed to snag a few of you in the middle to at least think for yourselves and not discount either side out of hand.

Leave science for the science class.

And while we’re at it, let’s overhaul science education, because this shit wouldn’t be happening if most science classes weren’t [edit, thanks Riz!] boring and confusing as hell, which only gives more strength to the nuts out there.

But that’s another rant.

tee hee!

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There is a lot of information on my site (shut up! there is!), but sadly, it is lacking the ONE crucial piece of information that person was looking for.

And who ever you are, anonymous searcher, should you ever find that piece of information…

would you share it with me? :)

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Cleeeeean

So besides spending 4 hours overhauling my template, what else did I do this weekend?

Well, saturday, Kev and I went shopping and I got a needle nose plier and wire cutter set to aid me in my beady stitch marker endeavors.* I also finally used a $50 best buy card I got as a gift a while back to purchase some better headphones for my mini. The internal earbud ones I have been using don’t hurt my ears as much as the standard iPod ones, but I’m sick of them falling out of my ears every time I move my head. My new ones are the “noise reducing” kind, and while they are bulkier than the bud variety, should help maintain my sanity. Of course, I forgot to bring them in today, so I’m stuck with the buds for another day.

Sunday…are you ready for this? I…CLEANED OUT MY REFRIGERATOR. Can you stand the excitement. It was getting seriously overcrowded in there…and I couldn’t really remember the last time I did it. And Friday morning when I went in to get my OJ, I’m pretty sure something in there gave me the finger. Not a good sign. Click the pics to make bigger and to find out what ESC keeps in her fridge. No before pics, sorry. I was afraid small children might see this blog and what they would see would rot their tiny innocent brains.

clean fridge

And while I was at it, I tackled that cabinet that is the “miscellaneous food item” cabinet that I just throw stuff in. At some point, some honey had leaked over things…and…it was just a sticky disorganized mess. Again, clicky to make biggie, and to read the notes.

a more organized cabinet

I hope you enjoyed that fascinating journey into my messy kitchen.

* I bought more beads and larger rings, so if anyone needs stitch markers that fit the larger sized needles, let me know!

a complete overhaul…

…and very little changes.

Not sure if you can tell, but I did a MAJOR OVERHAUL of my template code. Up until now, I was using one of the old blogger templates, tweaking, adjusting, and adding to get the look I wanted. The result was a jumbled mess of a template, where some things did NOTHING, and every goddamn individual thing had it’s own stupid instructions…and…

it was a mess.

But while reading Blurbomat I came across a mention of a site called glish.com, that LO AND BEHOLD had a 3 column template to mooch off of.

It took some major tweaking. Then I had to open up dreaded IE to see what it looked like, and do even MORE tweaking.

So I know that the columns aren’t perfectly aligned in IE. If I align them there, they are misaligned in firefox. I use firefox. If you are still using IE, you are a LOSER. Unless you are me, using one of the lab computers, which I have no browser preference control over.

But I have no idea how it looks on Safari, or on other screen resolutions. But unless someting GLARING pops up, DEAL WIT IT!

My template is CLEAN, and the code is ORGANIZED, and everything has an OBVIOUS PURPOSE and that’s what counts.

And if everything looks fine, then please continue reading below for the FASCINATING conclusion to “ask the evils.”